What is a Colloquy? [54]

March 11, 2025  Isaiah 55:10-11, Psalm 34, Matthew 6: 7-15.

'My child,

This is a day of prayer for your son, who is with me now, and for his beloved Sarah. Trust in me my child. I will make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun. Do not be afraid, but trust. There are many who long to hear what you hear, and to do what you do. But I have chosen you. You have not chosen me. And so it is with much joy and delight that I tell you this: There are none that you know who shall not be with me. Trust in me. Not one will fall from my hand. Now go to your day and know this. This is a day of prayer for your son. Be happy and rejoice in it. Amen.'

The Scriptures speak to me about Jason:

Isaiah answered prayer for me.

The psalm answered prayer for him.

Matthew 6:7-15 Jason was praying the Our Father.

Lord, it is a mystery to me, but I accept this cross of losing my son here, and give him to you completely. Thank you for the grace of knowing he is with you and Sarah. Thank you for the gift of having him with me here on earth. May my love go with him, as small it is to yours. Help me to find Peace on this earth, until I see him again. And thank you for the consolation of hearing his voice for a while on this earth. May my grandchildren find Peace and Joy again, soon, O Lord. That their lives will be rich with love and grace and that we find courage to continue on until we see them both again, Jason & Sarah. Bless them Lord as you bless Jason in heaven with you, on this day of prayer for him. May his joy be complete in you, O Lord, and may his righteousness shine like the noonday sun. Come Holy Spirit, come in the name of Jesus. Mother Mary I entrust him to you. Amen.

March 11, 2025 late evening hours

after prayer of intercession...

I felt the Lord telling me that Jason would still come to me, when I need comfort I think...I could not write at the time this was coming to me. The Lord said that Jason had a special gift, and that he will  bless him with this special grace.

 The Lord will make this clearer to me when the time is right. For now I am grateful, and the loss seems less hard to bear. Thank you Lord Jesus, Mother Mary.

And Jason will also be an intercessor for us when the time is right. All in the Lord's Good time.

Amen.

March 12, 2025 Psalm 51

'I am still here. I've been given a special grace to come to you. Don't be sad mom, I love you and we'll see each other again. All is forgiven, but there was not much. You did your best, gave everything for us, never selfish. You put yourself last, always gave everything for us. I did not see this then, but I see it now. Life was hard for you, but you continued on. Please continue on now, for the kids, they need you. You must now teach them about their faith. Do not hesitate. We want them to have everything as we do, so continue with them.  Jason.'

Thank you, Lord, for this grace.

Lord Jesus, Moher Mary, pray for us.

DRAW ME INTO YOUR FRIENDSHIP, The Spiritual Exercises

David L. Fleming, S.J.

The Literal Version

[54]  The Colloquy is made, properly speaking, as one friend speaks to another, or as a servant to his master; now asking some grace, now blaming oneself for some misdeed, now communicating one's affairs, and asking advice in them.

The Contemporary Reading

[54] "Colloquy" is a term that describes the intimate conversation between God the Father and me, Christ and me, or perhaps Mary or one of the saints and me. This conversation happens on the occasion of my putting myself as totally as I can into the setting of the prayer. I will find that I speak or listen as God's Spirit moves me - sometimes accusing myself as sinner, sometimes letting myself be carried as a child, at other times expressing myself as lover or friend, and so on. A colloquy does not take place at any particular time within the period of prayer; it happens as I am moved to respond withing the setting of the exercise. It is true that I should mark the actual end of the hour of prayer with a definite closure - usually the Our Father or some favorite prayer is a reverent way of my bringing an end to a formal prayer period.

What is the Office of Consoling? [223-224]

 March 4, 2025

Journal entry.
Jason, my son, passed today, suddenly.

March 4, 2025

Journal entry.

I am numb. All is surreal. Then it is deep, despairing sadness and pain.

Last night I prayed for a sign that Jay is with the Lord. And I recalled that Jason had been sharing about his spiritual journey. That he understood what I was saying. He had encounters with God and knew Consolation. He also said he had prayed, and prayed the Our Father.

He texted me this as well and said that he, if he ever married again, it would be Catholic, that he would not reject his baptism or his faith.

He had found his faith and my prayers were answered.

Then as I suffered in pain before the Lord and gave all the suffering to him, to use as he would, the Lord spoke to my heart and said,

'This is the sign, you will receive consolation. 

And I was in Consolation. This has happened a few times already.

Jason is with Sarah and the family, and watching over us with her.

March 5, 2025  Ash Wednesday

Thank you Lord,

I entered the church, went to light two candles, one for the four grandchildren and my younger son, Devon, the other for Jason, and I knelt before the Divine Mercy image of Jesus, entrusting all into his hand.

"I give you my heart Lord," I prayed.

During the Intercessory Prayers, I prayed in my heart for personal prayers, for Jason, Eternal rest, that the Lord would bring him home, wipe away his tears, heal his heart. And I was asking forgiveness for the failure to help him.

The Lord said to me:

"He is with me now, and he is asking you to pray for the children".

I was so grateful and to tears, 

prayed for the children.

During Communion, I was again repenting and sorry for failing him, and then the Lord spoke again, and Jason too.

'Your son is with me and Sarah too. They are pleased with  you.'

And I heard Jason, 'I understand now, and we are happy you are there with the kids. Pray for them and accompany them.'

I received the assurance that all would be well and they would be provided for.

Later that evening as I prayed at home...

Jason, "Mom I am with you now and I am so happy. The Lord has given me such a beautiful place. But I will only be here for a while."

The Lord did say it would be for a little while. The Lord is here too and I feel such great consolation in my heart.

Thank you Lord God, Thank you.

March 7, 2025  Psalm 51

I am mourning my son, my beautiful son.  I am surrendering my younger son, my lost child, to the Lord. I will ask a Mass for him.

My heart hurts, not for one but for two. And the Lord comforts me with his Consolation in my whole being as well as my heart.

Psalm 51 touches me today.

I am always repenting, sorry for my mistakes.

I hold on to the grace, the answer to prayer, that I will see my sons in eternity, and now I pray for my grandchildren as they mourn the loss of their dad, my son Jason.

Bless you Lord Jesus. Bless you.

March 8, 2025  Isaiah 58:9b-14; Psalm 86; Luke 5:27-32

The Lord:

"I want you to just listen to me today. Times are hard, but I am very near, as are your loved ones with me. Trust in me, my child. I will direct you in the way you should go, and in the things you should do. I am pleased that you hear me and that you listen to me. There is no reason to be afraid or to worry as you do. Trust in me. Have I not shown you the way in the past. I am the Consoler as Ignatius taught all whom I put before him, and ... to this day. I am risen and I spend time with my people. It pleases me that you come to me and that you have given me your heart, and I bring consolation, but not for what you do or who you are, but because I love you with an everlasting love. Now go to your day. All will be well. This pain too will pass for I come to console and to heal. Trust in me, my child, and follow the desires of your heart, for it is I who have placed them in your heart. I hear the prayers you send up for your loved ones and for those you do not know - and I answer them. I will bring comfort and consolation to your loved ones. All will be well. All will be well. Amen."

It is coming to me to do a Memorial Mass for Jason and Sarah. I had asked for a regular Mass. (not regular as ordinary, but our usual mass that we attend at 8:30am)  But now I am feeling to ask for a Memorial Mass. And to share the words the Lord gave to me as in the previous pages, about Jason and the Lord.

"Memorial Mass for Jason and Sarah".

March 8, 2025, 5pm, Jason:

'I have forgiven you Mom, and I am happy. I understand now, and I have a special place here, thanks to you. I will go soon and you won't hear from me, but I love you and I will be watching over you now and praying for you, as you have always prayed for me. Try not to be so sad because of me. I am okay, more than okay, and Sarah is too. We love you and we will be watching from afar.

But the Lord is near, nearer than you can imagine. Pray for our children and we will pray for you. I love you. Jason.

The Lord is near, as you always say, and hear. Amen.

Spiritual Exercises [223-224]

Concerning March 4th and 5th

experiences of consolation as written in this journal.

Draw me into your Friendship, The Spiritual Exercises, by David L. Fleming, S.J.

LITERAL TRANSLATION & A CONTEMPORARY READING

LITERAL TRANSLATION:

[223] Fourth Point. The fourth, to consider how the divinity, which seemed to hide itself in the passion, now appears and shows itself so marvelously in the most holy resurrection by its true and most holy effects.

[224] Fifth point. The fifth is to consider the office of consoling which Christ our Lord bears, and to compare how friends are accustomed to console friends.

A CONTEMPORARY READING

...[223-224] In contrast to the passion, I should note how much the divinity shows through the person of Jesus in all his appearances. The peace and the joy which he wants to share with me can only be a gift of God. To realize that the role of consoler which Jesus performs in each of his resurrection appearances is the same role he performs now in my life is a faith insight into why I can live my life in a true Christian optimism.

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