Chaplet of Saint Ignatius

Chaplet of Saint Ignatius
If you knew the treasure of God, in sitting in silence with His Word, you would never speak again...received in prayer on January 25, 2012

Monday, 10 March 2014

Dreams and visions in Spiritual Direction

A little background...
First prophecy of the Passion
Jesus began to make it clear to his disciples that he was destined to go to Jerusalem and suffer grievously at the hands of the elders and chief priests and scribes, to be put to death, and to be raised up on the third day. Then, Peter took Jesus aside and said, 'No this must not happen to you.'

How many of us have said the same thing when we heard that something not so good was going to happen, or was happening, to ourselves, or to someone we loved?

And Jesus tells Peter that the way he is thinking is man's way, not God's way.  'If anyone wants to be a follower of mine...let him take up his cross and follow me.'  Matthew 16:21-25

The Transfiguration
" Six days later, Jesus took with him Peter and James and his brother John and led them up a high mountain where they could be alone.  Then in their presence he was transfigured: his face shone like the sun and his clothes became as white as the light.  Suddenly Moses and Elijah appeared to them; they were talking with him.  Then Peter spoke to Jesus, 'Lord,' he said 'it is wonderful for us to be here; if you wish, I will make three tents here, one for you, one for Moses and one for Elijah.'  He was still speaking when suddenly a bright cloud covered them with shadow, and from the cloud there came a voice which said, 'This is my Son, the Beloved; he enjoys my favour.  Listen to him.' When they heard this, the disciples fell on their faces, overcome with fear.  But Jesus came up and touched them.  'Stand up,' he said 'do not be afraid.'  And when they raised their eyes they saw no one but only Jesus.

As they came down from the mountain Jesus gave them this order, 'Tell no one about the vision until the Son of Man has risen from the dead'. "
Matthew 17:1-9


How close is heaven and earth!
Only a vision away.

I am always amazed at what transpires in prayer.  The Lord is indeed ever near.

Here, my life is hard.  There is, of course, much joy and beauty - the joy of playing dolls and make-believe with my grandchildren, the joy and love of hugs, my dear husband, my children, my family, my friends - but there is also pain: my daughter-in-law's illness, three years now, and all the ups and downs of daily life.  A plane has disappeared, and the whole world is wondering, and suffering, along with the families and friends of these dear loved ones.

A mystery to us, but not to our God.  May the Truth of Jesus Christ be in this situation for all concerned!

My life too can be mystery.  I don't know what is ahead.

But sometimes, if I am attentive, the Lord will give me a glimpse of something.  It can be as simple as a vision of a sink overflowing because a plate has blocked the dishwasher's flow of water from going down the drain (I didn't pay attention to that one!).  It can be as complex as a dream about a job cut and a letter of farewell dictated in the night.  Read about that one here...

When my Dad died I had a dream.  I dreamed that I was in an empty room.  I had the sense that it was a waiting room.  There were two doors in the room, on opposite sides of each other.  One door opened, and my Dad came into the room.  He came to me and took me into his arms.  I put my arms around him and held onto him.  Not a word was said.  I knew in my dream that he had passed away, but the one thing that was very real to me, was how solid he felt in my arms.  He was real, and I felt very comforted.  Then, just as quietly as he had come, he let go of me and left through the other door.  I knew in my mind that he had to go.  But the peace and comfort of his presence stayed with me.  The next morning, I spoke to  my Mom.  I didn't mention to her right away what had happened to me.

She told me that she had had a dream.

My Dad had come to her.  The room was filled with light.  He took her into his arms and they danced and talked.  It was wonderful she said.  Then he left.

Because of my dream, I was able to be present to my Mom with hers, and to tell her that the Lord loves her so much He gave her this special gift.

We will see my Dad again, but I have here, now - through recollection - a place to feel comfort.  The dream, the vision, is always given for a purpose.  For my Mom and I, it was given for comfort and sustenance, for hope and promise.

As it was for the disciples.

As we begin our Lenten journey, let us ask God to open the eyes of our hearts.

The Lord is very near.

How close is heaven and earth?
Only a vision, a dream, a consolation away.

See Chapter 10. Divine Administrator - A Prophetic Word

Monday, 2 September 2013

How do I act in times of spiritual consolation? Rule 10 [323]

Journal entry of...August 16, 2013

A battle again to Peace.  How did the night pass for my son and his baby?  Were they safe?  I struggled for Peace, for Trust in God.  This is the treasure I have learned that I must store up in heaven, a treasure that will not fail:  Trust in God.

As I struggled, this worship song came to me,
"If the Lord God is for us,
who can be against,
the people the Lord has called his own."

I kept hearing the verse, If God is for us, who can be against us?
My heart lifted and I felt such Peace and Joy, not of this earth but of heaven, of the Lord Himself.  I stayed in this quiet, in this Peace and Joy that lifted me up.  I knew in my heart that to stay there, with the Lord, to abandon myself to His touch, would be a blessing for me, a healing, a strengthening, a gifting in some way for future trials.

"With God on our side who can be against us?"  Romans 8:31
I wrote in my journal, and in my Bible, under today's date, that these things had come to me...my fear and anxiety for my son and the baby were overwhelming me.  The battle to find Peace was hard.  And the Lord touched me with this song.  Thank you Lord Jesus.
Thank you Lord God.

...as I continue my morning of prayer...
Liturgy of the Hours.
Prayer to Saint Stephen, that he pray for our family; as King of Hungary in the year 1000, "he was just, peaceful, pious, exactly observing the laws of the Church, and ever seeking the welfare of his people.  He founded many dioceses and spent great energy in fostering the work of the Church."
August 16, Stephen of Hungary.

Then I read, prayed on page 1452, in the Responsary:
'In the depths of his heart, the law of God is his guide.
- In the depths of his heart, the law of God is his guide.
He will never lose his way.
- The law of God is his guide.'

Thank you Lord for this assurance
a struggle to find Peace these last two days.
St. Stephen of Hungary, pray for us!
Thank you Lord Jesus.  Amen.

Ignatian Rules for Discernment [313- 327]
Rules for perceiving and knowing in some manner the different movements which are caused in the soul, the good, to receive them, and the bad to reject them.
[323] Tenth Rule.  The tenth: let him who is in consolation think how he will be in desolation which will come after, taking new strength for then.

Tenth Rule of Discernment

What is spiritual journaling?

(I have not blogged for a while...my spiritual journaling, however, continues without cease.  Here is today's entry from my spiritual journal of August 15th, 2013...)

August 15, 2013  The Assumption of Our Lady

A very difficult situation for one of our children.  Yet there is nothing I can do.  Can I rescue them?  Can I save them?  Only the Lord can help.

He is an adult.  He must make his own decisions.  I pray asking the Lord to bless him with Wisdom.  And me too.  To help me to see this through His eyes, through the eyes of Jesus Christ.

It is not easy. It is very hard.  And I feel that my heart is breaking.  This is how it was with Mary.  'And a sword will pierce your heart.' (Luke 2:35b)

I must be like her, and treasure all these things in my heart.

She was told that a sword would pierce her heart.  Many swords, seven, pierced her heart.

It is this way for all mothers.

And Mary shows us the way.

She treasured all these things in her heart.  So must I.  Even as I pray for my children, I must treasure these things in my heart.

It will be the same for them, for my children.

I pray three Hail Mary's...and the Gloria.

And a Peace settles over me.

Thanks be to God!

'The Lord has done great things for me.  Holy is his name.' Luke 4:39-56

Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for us now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Review Prayer by Keeping a Journal

Novena of the Three Hail Marys

Friday, 27 July 2012

What is Contemplation?

July 23, 2012


John 6:1-15  The Miracle of the loaves
"He himself knew exactly what he was going to do." John 6:7


This morning as I read the Scripture for Sunday, these words stood out for me:
'He himself knew exactly what he was going to do.'


And this is the Lord: He does know exactly what He is going to do concerning all the concerns I bring before Him.


As He extended His hand and invited me into the Scripture, I saw large fields and a sea of people.


I saw how some were occupied with their families and needs, and so did not seem to be aware of the miracle that was taking place, the multiplication of the loaves, the baskets never emptying - yet Jesus provided for them.


Jesus showed me a mother holding her child to her and looking at the same time at what Jesus was doing, showing me how I should be.


I saw others who were aware that it was not possible for the basket to still be full after feeding so many.


I can be so occupied with my concerns, and not be aware, of how much the Lord is working in my life, and in the lives of those around me.


Help me Lord.
Open my eyes.
Let me see your good work,
that I may praise my Father in heaven.


I feel a Peace and a Joy within me.
Thank You Lord.

Orientations for Spiritual Growth, Gospel Contemplation - a fuller explanation

the WORD among us Daily Mass Reading & Meditation

Friday, 20 July 2012

What is Meditation?

February 3, 2012
"Jesus was filled with fear and great distress."  Mark 14:33
"And a sudden fear came over him and great distress."  Mark 14:33

As I prayed the Sorrowful Mysteries, I saw that Jesus was always under the eyes of God in his suffering.
The Father saw all of his suffering.
'Just as I watched over My Son in his suffering,
so too I watch over you
in your suffering,
and I will lift you up.'

I saw that, as I carried the prayers for (my family member) in my heart, the Lord watched over me.
As she is going through this, the Lord is watching over her.
Thank you Lord.

And then as a confirmation I read and saw this Scripture in a new way:
"Jesus was filled with fear and great distress."  Mark 14:33  (Liturgy of the Hours)

The Father watched over His Son in his distress, just as He watches over me in my distress.

I cried at this and prayed my Rosary with uplifted hands.
Truly I am not alone in my suffering.

Truly God is with us.

'Dieu se fait proche de nous' is the reflection and prayer for the month of February in Prions en église.

Thank you Lord, for this very clear message that You are near.


February 6, 2012
Grace prayed for:  Power to Rejoice in my union with God
Theme:  God Gives Himself to me
Reading: Psalm 145

Again the hymn comes to me, and I stay with it: Gift of Finest Wheat
'You satisfy the hungry heart
With gift of finest wheat
Come give to us, O saving Lord
The bread of life to eat.'

As the words come to me in this refrain, my heart is filled with such love it is almost unbearable, to bring me to tears.

And as I look in my hymnal and sing the words in my heart, I am filled to unbearable with love for the Lord.

And the Lord says to me:
'It is only through My Word and My Body
that you can truly rejoice in
your union with me.
For man alone in the flesh
this is not possible.'


Jesuits in English Canada, Meditation

The Holy Rosary in Sacred Scripture

Saturday, 30 June 2012

Daily Life - Come back to this post for more...

Journal entries


March 3, 2012
'This is the unitive way' the Lord said to me, I unite my sufferings to his in prayer for others. This is what Jesus did: his suffering and death was for me.  My offering up of prayers in my time of suffering for healing of others, is the unitive way.


October 26, 2011
1John 2:15-17  I felt great hope as I read this.  And the Lord said to me:
'Your temptation shall be in the banal.'   I looked up the word and it means: commonplace, trite, trivial.  And I can see this is true, television, a conversation on the telephone.


October 31, 2011
'Two generations coming against each other: one wants to go forward; the other wants to return to the past.'  Wisdom for parents, children, caregivers...


November 21, 2011
The Lord said to me that I should be aware of His Presence, He is always with me.
'Be aware of My Presence; I am always with you.'
I had such Peace.


December 12, 2011
The Lord said to me that this is the sign that no matter what the situation, I am never alone: He has put Jack in  my life and me in Jack's life.  This is the Lord's sign to the world that we are never alone. This is the Lord's sign to the world in marriage, that we are never alone.


December 24, 2011
Luke 2:1-14  What came to me as I contemplated was that Mary and Joseph's journey was long and hard.
'In this life you will have trouble, but do not fear, I am with you through it all.'
'In this world you will have troubles, but here I am in the midst of it all.'
'I am with you and will never abandon you.  Trust in Me, My child.  Trust in Me.'


December 30, 2011
As I prayed the Rosary, this happened at the Fourth Sorrowful Mystery, The Carrying of the Cross.
I am praying for the Grace of a deeper trust in God, and God is showing me a little of who He is that I want to trust in: He feels the burden of my pain; He carries it in His Own Heart; He suffers with me.
He Whom I desire to have a deeper trust in, knows and feels my pain, and carries it in His Own Heart.
'Through your life, you know a little of what my Son felt.'


January 4, 2012
'As much as is your desire to do good things for your children, much more is My desire to do good things for you.'
I am praying for a deeper trust in God, and God is giving me a deeper understanding of Who He is.


January 4, 2012
Contemplation of Matthew 2:1-12
'My Son came into a world of conniving and deceit.'
This is how it is in our faith walk - even in the midst of conniving and deceit - He guides our path, fills us with Joy, blesses us with all we need, and protects us from harm, always providing a way out from under our difficulties.


January 7, 2012
The Lord (then) said to me: 'fear of intimacy.'
'You have been avoiding me in prayer.'
And he said to me that I have a fear of intimacy.
'Your experience of intimacy is that it comes with many demands.  This is the human way.  But it is not this way with me.  My way is Freedom.'
And the Lord brought to mind past relationships and responsibilities.  I sat as I realized I was receiving a healing, and I felt a warmth and Presence in my heart.

January 7, 2012
'The perceived demands that come with intimacy with Jesus seem too overwhelming.'
'The human way comes with many demands.'
'This is your experience.'
'But it is not this way with Me.'
'I bring freedom.'
I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life.'


January 19, 2012
The Magnificat, Luke 1:46-55
All generations will call me blessed. Verse 48b
'What you have given your children will be carried forward in their lives
and in the lives of those they love,
because what you have given them is from Me.'
Holy is His Name. Verse 49b
'Your desires bring distraction,
My desires bring Love and Peace.'


January 25, 2012
Liturgy of the Hours - At the close of the Office of Reading, I read:
"When we listen to your word,
our minds are filled with light.
- It is the lowly heart that understands."
Then the Lord said to me:
'If you knew the treasure of God, in sitting in silence with His Word,
You would never speak again.'





Thursday, 28 June 2012

What is the Unitive Way?

Journal entry
March 3, 2012


I fell the Lord saying to me to trust in him.
Trust in me my child.  I will heal you of this infirmity.


I am still suffering with pain in my lower back.  When I wake it is quite painful.  It is hard to find a comfortable way to lie down, I am still on my back with a pillow under my knees, to prevent me from rolling around, and to lift the pressure from my lower back.  I felt a pain down my leg when I tried to shift this morning.


I was up early, couldn't sleep, so went to lie down reclined again in the chair in the office.  And I did sleep, although fitfully at times.


I do have a great fear, that I will have a herniated disk in the lower back, and I prayed to give this to the Lord.


At one point, I was filled with great joy and the thought came to me that the injury was muscular and would heal.  How joyful I felt!


I found a position sitting as I prayed that was quite comfortable, and I thought I could stay like this and keep praying for a very long time.


My prayer at one point was for those I pray for, and it was then that the Lord said to me that he was pleased because I had prayed for others and not for myself.


Earlier the Lord had said to me that it was in prayer that he would heal me.  And yet I had prayed for others with no thought to myself.  It was then that the Lord said to me that he was pleased with me.


There are so many on our telephone prayer chain who need help and healing.


I thanked the Lord for rescuing me from the threat of a herniated disk.


During the day, my pain is little.  Thank you Lord.  I think it is the fear that is the worst.




Examen Prayer
I saw how I felt sad...I thought of how I was and how I may have to sleep in both rooms, beginning in our bed, and then here alone in the office, if I woke with pain. And I thought of a young man at Church and his wife, and I wondered if he suffered physically from pain.  And I prayed for him and for his wife.  I prayed for his healing, that he would be restored to full health and strength, this young man, and for healing for his wife as well.


And the Lord then spoke to me and reminded me of the words he spoke to me when I asked for Wisdom as in James 1:5 for healing for my back.  He had said to me that I should 'trust in the process' - and I saw how Jesus had entered into a human body with its restrictions of time and space, I saw his suffering and his carrying the Cross.


And I asked the Lord to teach me as I was being healed.


The Lord reminded me of this and showed me that now in my sickness I was praying for others.  And I now see that this is an answer to my prayer:  that I had offered up my pain and suffering, that the Lord would use it as he sees fit for his own purpose.


'This is the unitive way' he said to me, I unite my sufferings to his in prayer for others.


This is what Jesus did:  his suffering and death was for me.


My offering up of prayers in my time of suffering for healing for others, is the unitive way.


Thank you Lord.


And I cried tears of consolation and love.  How blessed am I. Thank you Lord.
Amen.


I have asked the Lord today
to teach me through this suffering.
and I offered it up again,
that he may use it however he likes,
if he would do so.


If there is anyone of you who needs wisdom,
he must ask God,
who gives to all freely and ungrudgingly;
it will be given to him.
James 1:5


Understanding the spiritual journey: from the classical tradition to the Spiritual Exercises of Ignatius, by Jean-Marc Laporte, S.J.